Holding Space

 We have been holding "space" in this country since before our forced immigration here over 400 hundred years ago. The generational trauma to our collective psyche has some of US identifying with our oppressor (Stockholme syndrome) in the vain hope that whitey will be less brutal, release some pressure from his size thirteen jackboot on our necks, while others take an opposite stance. I am personally done because my anger is not directed toward whitey for doing what they do to preserve their 200 year headstart. My angst is directed at deaf, dumb, and blind Black folk who refuse to rise up collectively to effectively push back against the oppression because they are "not all that racist," or "maybe tRump needs to come back," or "I had more money under tRump", or whatever other bizarre rationalizations they can conjure up in their pea brain for supporting a documented bigot. The fact of the matter is chump the brain dead comic carnival barker aka klueless the klown does not give a f*&k about them, you, me, this country or anything other than saving his fat ass from going to prison for all the treasonous, unethical s%&t he did before, during, and after he grudgingly left office. All the safeguards, that would have had either a Black or brown president summarily executed for a fraction of the s#@t chump did, failed spectacularly in the case of trumpty dumpty. When Joe Biden beat his fat ass in 2020, we needed an aggressive, no-holds-barred, junkyard dog, take-no-prisoner attorney general. We got Caspar Milquetoast in the person of Merrick Garland, and a “constitutional crisis we have not seen the likes of before,” instead. Stinky without the Brain sat in the oval office for over 180 minutes gulping down vat size containers of diet coke while his supporters were beating cops with flagpoles, fire hydrants and billy clubs, erecting makeshift gallows, sh%ting and pissing in the halls of congress, burgling and vandalizing staff offices. Bob Wardward asked tRump what he was gonna to do about the Covid pandemic that had grown into a conflagration killing millions of Americans in the process. Woodward reported tRump responded “I will do something in 106 days." The reference was not immediately comprehensible until Woodward associated it with the upcoming ‘20 election. For whitey, aspirational whites, and their pet knee grows to support, rally around, and elect this monster, a dirty, grimy, low-down, rotten scoundrel, back into office is akin to receiving an unexpected psycho elbow drop on our collective consciousness. I am working on my exit plan. Uganda first to finish up work on a long-term research project, then either to Columbia or Mexico thereafter. I have not made a firm decision. But the cities I am considering have considerable Afro-Colombian or Afro-Mexican populations. I wanna live out the rest of my life on a warm, sun swept beach, with crystal clear waters, sipping thick, sweet, and potent rum, brandy, or cognac, smoking good sticks (cigars or weed or both, I do not discriminate), and watching beautiful Afro-Latinas in their skimpy bathing suits, before retreating to my modest villa to drink fresh squeezed juices and eat picked fruit, caught fish, and organic vegetables free of GMO, pesticides, and inorganic contaminants. F*&k this settler-colonial, apartheid state😏Y’all can have it, the stress😒, and the bullshit associated with the rat race. I am not going to be found in some $5,000/month apartment in Brooklyn heights shaped into a fetal position, clutching my heart, for trying to get in where I can fit in🤨